T.: So what is it you'd like to share and/or discuss today?
C.: This afternoon I did something pretty meaningless but it got me thinking of something serious.
T.: Go on.
C.: I was out walking. I left my phone at home on purpose, and I just started thinking, I sort of let my thoughts flow. First they were all about what I should do once I return home, then workplace flashed in my mind, my present unhappiness with way too many things but then I sort of just went totally blank.
T.: What do you mean, blank?
C.: I just stopped thinking. I just... were there, noticing things like way too bright sunshine, sharp sound of piece of ice crushing whenever I stepped on it, freshness of light spring breeze on my skin.
T.: So you concentrated on the moment.
C.: I guess you can call it that. And then I did that something I mentioned earlier. There was this puddle of water with this big round piece of ice sort of covering the surface of the puddle. I lightly stepped on it with one foot to see what would happen.
T.: And what happened?
C.: It didn't break as I half expected it to but went under the water and only then did I notice it wasn't just a single round piece of ice. It was attached to another piece of ice, a long narrow one looking like a spinal cord or a hose.
T.: Go on.
C.: And I know it may sound stupid but it's almost as if I had been reminded that things aren't as simple as they may seem and that there are connections and influence a bare eye might be completely oblivious of.
T.: The "spinal cord" or "hose" on the half-frozen puddle?
C.: Not just that, no. Seeing that piece of ice ducking instead of breaking under pressure reminded me of how sometimes giving in can help avoid unneeded fight or loss and also save strength for where or when it's actually needed, and also how things are or may be connected even when not seen.
T.: Could you be a bit more specific about that kind of situation?
C.: I guess I feel a bit lost in my own life right now. I feel as if I wasn't the captain of this ship but merely a passenger who is seasick most of the time. the mistake I guess I keep making is that I fight the seasickness when I should just let it out, let it take over and then it would be out of my system.
T.: Would you really say you're in no control at all?
C.: Guess not. I just feel that way. And there's no way out or maybe I just haven't figured it out quite yet. But I guess I could stop worrying about what could be done and use this time more wisely. I could just be.
T.: How do you feel about doing that?
C.: Alright actually. I'll give it a try.
T.: You do that.
