Dia's diaries

Vihaan sua nyt ihan yhtä paljon ku vielä rakastan. Odotan sitä päivää, kun suhun ei linkity kumpaakaan tunnetta eikä mitään muutakaan paitsi aitoa välinpitämättömyyttä.

Toivon, ettemme olisi koskaan tavanneetkaan. Mikään rakkaus ja hyvä (yhdessä)olo ei ole tällaisen tuskan arvoinen.

Vihaan sitä, mitä teit.
Vihaan sitä, minkä jätit tekemättä.
Vihaan sitä, mitä tein.
Vihaan sitä, minkä jätin tekemättä.

Tästä viikonlopusta tulee hyvä.

To do -listalla on kännit ja random seksiä. Älkää ilmoittautuko, satutan teitä kuitenkin.

Style of your hair
shape of you eyes and your nose
the way you stare, as if you see right through to my soul
To your left hand and the way that its not quite as big as your right.
The way u stand in the mirror before we go out at night.
Our quiet time
your beautiful mind

There all part of the list
things that I miss
Things like your funny little laugh, or the way you smile, or the way we kiss
What I notice is this
I come up with
something new every single time, that I sit and reminisce

The way your sweet smell, lingers when you leave a room.
Stories you tell, as we lay in bed, all afternoon
I dreamed you now every night, in my mind is where we meet
and when Im awake, staring at pictures of you asleep
touching your face
invading your space.

There all part of the list
things that I miss
Things like your funny little laugh, or the way you smile, or the way we kiss
What I notice is this
I come up with
something new every single time, that I sit and reminisce.

And you live in my memories for evermore, I swear

There all part of the list
things that I miss
Things like your funny little laugh, or the way you smile, or the way we kiss
What I notice is this
I come up with
something new every single time, that I sit and reminisce.

Vinoon menevien asioiden tajuaminen ei yksinään riitä, niille kannattaa ylenesä tehdäkin jotain. Muuten tulee se kaunis päivä, kun kiltti tyttö saa mittansa täyteen.

He:
She hates that I don't do dishes
Even though I mess up the most
And she begs me all the time to help her
And I know I should but I'm lazy... so I don't.
She always considering my feelings
Thinking of me before herself
Most of the time, I'm so damn selfish
I don't even realize she treats me so well

She's so much better than me
I'm so unworthy of her
Why does she stay? Why does she stay? Why?

She hates that we don't spend much time
We barely see each other at all
She don't even nag me 'bout always working
She just says I just wish every now and then that you would call
I don't know why she's still here
She could have any man that she wants
Step outside of myself see how much you love
And all the things I should do for her that I just don't
And I realize...

She's so much better than me,
I'm so unworthy of her,
Why does she stay? Why does she stay?
Tell me why? Why? why? why?
Why? why? why? why?

She's in love, she's in love, she's in love
And I don't understand, that I don't understand no
She's in love, she's in love, she's in love
Got to be a better man for her

Why does she stay?

She's so much better than me,
I'm so unworthy of her,
Why does she stay? Why does she stay?
Tell me why? Why? why? why?
Why? why? why? why? Why?

She:
I love(d) you.

I keep on fallin' in and out of love with you
Sometimes I love ya, sometimes you make me blue
Sometimes I feel good, at times I feel used
Lovin' you darlin', makes me so confused

I keep on fallin', in and out of love with you
I never loved someone the way that i'm lovin' you

I never felt this way
How do you give me so much pleasure,
cause me so much pain,
'Cause when I think
I'm taking more than would a fool
I start fallin'
back in love with you.

I keep on fallin', in and out of love witha you
I never loved someone the way that i'm lovin' you

Haluan olla karhu, voisin nukkua seuraavat kipeiksi tarkoitetut 6 kk alta pois.

Lälläslää. En ollut yötä kotona eilen enkä näillä näkymin ole tänäänkään.

I love me.

I just don't care anymore
I've reached the end of the rope
I just don't care anymore
Won't cry these tears anymore

Can't find it in the bible
Can't find it on t.v.
Can't find it in diamonds
There's something inside me that just went around it
Can't find it in music
Can't find it in my soul
Can't find it in chocolate
Oh babe I can't hide it
I can't even fight it

I just don't care anymore
I've reached the end of the rope
I just don't care anymore
Won't cry these tears anymore

There's no way she can kiss you the way that I do
I heard that you miss me
Oh you should be careful of whom you've been talking to
[All those] nights without you have taught me to be strong
I've cut all my losses
Think no more about it because I couldn't fight it

I just don't care anymore
I've reached the end of the rope
I just don't care anymore
Won't cry these tears anymore

There was a time I thought I'd die
If you should ever leave me high and dry
And you don't want me anymore
It's time to settle the score

I just don't care anymore
I've reached the end of my temper I'm tired of the letters
I just don't care anymore
Won't cry these tears anymore
I just don't care anymore
I've reached the end of my rope and it's time that I've taught you so
I just don't care anymore
Won't cry these tears anymore

It's time to settle the score

Parikymppinen syötävän namu poika, joka tiesi tasan tarkkaan miten koskettaa mua sen yhteisen reilun tuntimme aikana.

Nyt on vihdoin lihakset raukeina, paikat hellinä, hyvä mieli, hymyilyttää ja kaulassa / niskassa kevyitä verenpurkaumia.

Tätä mun ois pitänyt tehdä jo suhteen aikana. Damn it!

Ensi viikolla uudestaan, tosin varmaan jonkun toisen kanssa. Sitoutuminen alkaa olla très passé mun maailmassa.

Niin, ja siis ihan kokovartalohieronnassa kävin. Mitä te pervot oikein luulitte? :D

Varsinkin yli kaksikymppiset sellaiset, ne tarjoaa melkein tasokasta viihdettä ristiriitaisuudellaan ja tyhjyydellään.

Älä lähettele mulle hymiöviestejä.
Älä kerro mulle sun päivästä.
Älä laita mua ajattelemaan - ja ikävöimään - sua.
Älä laita mua vihaamaan sua, vaikka se olisikin turvallisempi tunne kuin rakkaus.

En voi enkä halua voida mitään sille, ettet sä osaa päättää, mitä haluat.
En halua valvoa yön läpi itkien sohvalla, koska tyhjä sänky tuntuu vieraalta.
En halua ajatella sua.

Kiitos sentään siitä, että muutit eri kaupunkiin.

Jätä mut rauhaan.
Anna mun olla.